Happy New Year!!! С Новым Годом!!

Happy New Year everyone!

С Новым Годом to all my Russian friends!

2017 is over! A new year often means a new beginning!  Well the number 8 in Hebrew numerology means just that. I'm hoping that this year will be a new start for me.

Currently I am jobless for the first time in two years. The last time this happened it was the beginning of 2016 and I had just totalled my car and needed to find a job and fast. So I took a job as a security guard. Fast forward to 2017 Exactly one year to the day I started as a security guard, I quit and went to work for a large financial corporation. I absolutely loved it. Sadly it was not to last. 9 months later, September 1st I got a call that they were letting me go. I was in a state of shock. For two weeks I did not have a job so my moms friend referred me to someone (they will remain nameless). I worked for that person for 3 months and quit because, long story short, I could not please him. So I remained jobless for the next month.

This past month I realized that I needed a break from all the craziness in my life. I spend time with my family and we even got a new kitten for Christmas. His name is Rico. So as you can probably guess, I have had my hands full. I forgot how destructive cats can be. Anyways, all of that aside, I am going a little crazy. Call it cabin fever or whatever, but I need to find a job and quick. I hate sitting around. Unproductivity is what truly makes me unhappy. Another thing I figured out is that I keep letting what people say get to me. This is so unhealthy. In 2018 I resolve to stop that. I need to be like a duck in water. let the water roll off me (maybe my new meditation should be called "be one with the duck").

So, I just found out that the party I was supposed to go to got cancelled due to house system failures. So I felt really bad for a few hours and then learned about what happened to the house and immediately understood that it's not about me. I have a really bad habit of jumping to conclusion that someone does not like me or is mad at me and therefore does not want me around. This is simply not true. Another thing I need to work on in 2018.

New Years Eve morning I went to church. I was late but I made it just in time. I had to sit in the back. My friends were not there so I left right after to go home and set up for my lifestream. This is the first time I have ever tried something like this. The internet disconnected 3 times. Turns out that my network adapter was connected to the power settings. so it would be put to sleep every hour. I just fixed that this morning just before I sat down to write this post. Over-all it was an interesting experience. I learned a lot about OBS settings and how to make sure my microphone does not echo. I ended up chucking my microphone and just using the microphone in my laptop. I also connected my second monitor. The next thing I need to sit down and learn is GIMP. I need to make thumbnails for my videos. Another thing I need to do in 2018.

After the stream, I settled down in the basement and set the table and had myself a peaceful New Years party at home. It was pretty awesome. This is what I needed. After the new year struck I plugged in a movie and laid back with some tea and sweets. This time last year I spend New Years in a cold drafty guard house at a Coca Cola Plant. The bright side to all of this situation is that I was not on the roads where there could have been a bunch of drunk drivers and I did not have to spend a drop of gas to go to my party.

Every storm cloud has a silver lining and the sunshine after a storm makes a rainbow.

Happy New Year,

Melody

New Year...New Job!

Ok so this year has blown my mind so far. I will make this short since I have to be up a little early tomorrow.

Last year my life was headed down hill very fast and I was very discouraged. A little over a week into the new year, I had been in a car accident which was the most unfair thing because the other driver was at fault but walked away with just a scratch on their car. My car took all the force (standing vehicle hit by another vehicle) and was totaled. My Lucy was gone. I had to drive rentals for a couple months. Then I got Carolinka but now I have car payments. I took the bad with the good and went with it.

Then I found a job as a security guard. I kind of enjoyed it but the hours were crazy. I missed out on so much and at times it made me really upset. Especially around the holidays. Just a few days before Christmas my dad fell off a roof and hurt his back. Thank God he is ok now.  Then I spent New Years in a tiny little guard shack. Thankfully my parents Skyped in but still I was beyond upset about that. It was a really terrible year.

Here comes 2017. A couple weeks in I got a Facebook message from a friend in response to my pleas for a job. She said her old company was hiring and she could talk to the Manager. I agreed to let her put in a referral. I also put in about 10 other applications. In addition to the friend, 2 other applications showed promise. All 3 called me up and I considered my options. the first offered part time 3 days a week. The second offered a temp position but only for 3 months. And the last one offered full time temp to hire. The last option was the least risky. I decided to throw myself into the third option. Within a week of the interviews, I started working at a Securities Firm.

I am so mind blown right now. It is surreal to think that I do longer have to think about reports, patrols, or bar codes. I don't have to freeze in a tiny little building on a Saturday night. "Dobby is free!!!!" At the end of this week, I have my first weekend off in a year. I don't even know what to do with myself. I think I might go to the movies to see a special screening of Princess Bride and maybe record some videos for my Youtube channel.

I am so happy right now.
Humble but confident.

Happy New Year!

Well its official. 2016 was one of the hardest years of my life but somehow I managed to grow from those experiences. I am so glad it has finally come to a close.

Just a recap of 2016.
I was in a car accident in January. My car was totaled.
I got a job as a security guard in February. To this day my parents hate that choice of job and frequently start fights about it.
About 5 months after started said job I got a second post at a Baptist church.
Shortly after that I left my own congregation and to this day I do not go to any house of worship.
I dated a few guys and one stuck around for all of a month before realizing that we were not right for each other and he was faking it the entire time.
Shortly after that I deleted one dating site profile and switched to another one. No luck there. Frankly, it is discouraging.

Now that whole year is over. 2017 is upon us and the first thing I felt on the first day of the new year was hope. I felt hopeful for the first time in years. A new year. A new beginning. I have a few goals for this year.

1. Travel more around Georgia. Waterfalls and hikes.
2. Get the Youtube channel up and running.
3. Start an exercise regime of some kind. ie running on the neighborhood on my days off.

Those are just the beginning. The rest is up to God. I just know this year will be awesome.

Happy New Year!!!

How to Get Through the Holiday Blues: Alone on Every Holiday.

From the first time I started working for a large company of some kind, I have always had to sacrifice a lot around the holidays. I always longed for that ideal family togetherness but never seemed to feel it and may never truly get it.

The holidays are always so depressing to me. I have a love/hate relationship with the holiday season. This year is no different. Because of the post I work at, I will have to spend every single holiday alone in a little tiny guard shack with a couple space heaters for my company.That is not what I was expecting. This year I plan to take a different approach. I will put all my effort into making the best of the situation.

Here are a few tips to help you guys out.

• Get holiday themed decorations- I plan to put up lights in our window and I will get a small present for my supervisor. My little tree will be all dressed up and sitting on my windowsill in my room. 
• Get holiday themed foods- I plan to get a thanksgiving meal for Thanksgiving, Cookies for Hanukkah/ Christmas, and something sparkly for New Years. 
• Watch holiday themed movies- That will not be hard to rig up.
• Lastly text my SO and family- Even when I can't be there in person, I will still text my family on the day of the holiday. 

It might be depressing and I might be shedding tears about it at the moment, but I think I will make it through the holidays with just a little frostbite on my fingers.

Melody out!