A combination of things can break someone. Over the last 4 weeks I have been humbled again and again. Here is the Evidence:
-1 I was laid off a temp job.
+1 I met a really nice guy.
-1 Then the first week of the year I got in a car accident which totaled my car.
+1 I came out alive.
-1 Said guy only wanted to be friends
-2 Two of my closest friends are moving away.
-1 I can't find a job.
That brings the grand total to -4.
I am in a really dark place. What I don't understand is why everything I touch falls apart. The excuse could be bad timing but I think its more than that. In my pride I thought I could handle it but now I don't have anything at all.
+1 I have a roof over my head.
+1 I am healthy
+2 I have a room and a bed to sleep in.
This brings the grand total back to 0. Equilibrium.
I have splayed the evidence scientifically with +1 or -1 for good and bad things. My observations tell me that life has a way of balancing out. There always seems to be enough positive to balance out the negative. As Malcolm said in Jurassic Park, "Life finds a way"
One thing I have learned is to always have a plan B. Here goes more evidence. Even though I do not have someone to join me now, I still plan on going for a couple hikes this summer. I honestly don't care that I will be alone. Even though I don't have a car, I still plan on taking walks and getting out for some fresh air. I honestly don't care that I will be alone. Just because I am alone, that doesn't mean I am lonely. :)
I may be in a perpetual valley, but I always seem to pick myself back up and keep going.